Sigh. I can't say this has been the worst year of my life- because then it would just meld in with all the years that I've said that about- but it hasn't held its own to my priorities. *If he slams that door, I will-* Ergh. I need to get the fuck out of my parents house. There have been a lot of good things that have happened like Chris and I breaking up, Reuniting with old friends, Making new friends, and meeting Mike, but at this moment all the bad times outweigh the good. I miss not having the responsibilities that I have now. You don't know what you got, 'til it's gone! I'm tired of working fucking 30+ hours a week, going to school for 13+ hrs/wk, and only having one day off-which I had to force my manager to give me.

Bahhhhh. I hate complaining. This whole paragraph is a mess.

I have set a goal for myself! Whoop!
I am going to lose 20 pounds. There is no set time limit, just gotta lose it! I have already lost five, so only 15 more to go until im 145 again. It has been like four years since I was that size. Damn.

I think I'm going fucking crazy.

I'm not sick anymore. THANK THE YAY GOD! The only kind of crappy thing is now I can't sit on my ass all day-I have to go to work again...and school. Bah
I need to find time again.

Boop boop beep beep!
Hey, I'm back in business. Who needs tumblr anyways? :D

1.Holy shit. Was I really that depressed and emo a few years ago?

2.Holy shit. I was obsessed with Gaspard Ulliel.(He is fine)

3. Holy shit. Time to make a new layout.

4. Holy shit. How am I going to make a new layout when I have no photoshop.

5. Holy shit. Can any torrent me photoshop so I can make a new LJ layout.

6.Holy shit. Silly Silly Silly.

I don't know what to do. Nothing is working out. pooppooppoop.
what's a girl to do?

9th grade is starting all over again.
why can't one thing ever just stay the way it is?
not perfect, but deal-able.

Edit:
MY DAD.

Shea wuz hurr.

6:55 AM. Can't sleep. Hackin' Clurr'z EllJay.

Dude
I got this letter today from People to People and i guess I've been nominated/invited to go study/travel in England, France, Germany, The Netherlands, Belgium, and Switzerland.

Did anyone else get this letter?